I get insomnia twice a year. Not sure why, but it never fails. This one has been the worst one yet. It’s been going on since June. I had to talk to my Internal Medicine doctor, so she could prescribe me some sleeping pills.

I think the depression plus thinking too much made me not need any sleep. The worst was going on 25 hours without sleep and still not feeling tired. My ex gave me sleeping pills that finally knocked me out.

After tomorrow, I plan on forcing myself to sleep at least seven hours a night. No TVs, no laptops, and no thinking. I might start meditating 15 minutes before it’s time to sleep to see if this quiets my constantly-thinking mind.

I know that is one of the reasons I have aches and pains everywhere. My body seems to be deteriorating. I have lost almost 30 pounds since this insomnia hit. Sigh…I sometimes feel like I am going to be like the man in Stephen King’s “Insomnia” and start seeing creatures that no one else can see. I hope it doesn’t get to that.