oh, he's such a little bugger.
last night i found myself suddenly crying over him &again this afternoon the waterworks started again all because i was looking at pitures of him. i don’t know what makes me this way over him. i’m not in love with him nor do i have any lust towards him. i know he doesn’t care. i know i’m only seen as someone for him to have sex with. i’m not sure i even really care for him all that much – just the thought of losing him devastates me, and when i think about how i have no control over anything between us i want to be the wicked witch and have water poured on me so i melt. he is the only one who makes me feel this way. &what makes it even more frustrating is how i have absolutely no idea what i feel.
