shoes a lot. It took a lot and was very, very draining. I kept thinking that I would not be defeated. Last time I cried at one of these meetings everyone went over board thinking I was weak.

They do not understand however, crying does not make one weak. But I’ve got to deal with them…

did I also mention I literally bit my tounge.

not be defeated by brainless people! I’m better than that…

At least I kept telling myself that over and over. I did do two things, curled my toes in my shoes and literally bit my tounge…

tough…

I cry…

But no one can understand me when I’m blubbering… so I waited until after the meeting and cried…

but I am a strong person, even if I do cry, I am still strong.

Too many people see crying as a sign of weakness, it isn’t, it is just how we deal with it.

But for them to preceive me as weak, I do not want that. As my points would not get across as they would have that perception and/or let sympathy get in the way of the points.

I just thought about their view point of me being weak and them winning. I did not let that happen. I would not let them win. It took time and a lot of practice, but I did it!