I just finished my last weekend out for a bit, I need some down time. I feel like I’ve been reliving my early 20’s… didn’t get a chance to do that then, so I get to do it now. A bit of craziness, a lot of laughter, and a ton o fun. Wholly buckets, when I look at pictures and read my journal from August until today I’ve been giving her pretty good. Here and there and everywhere else. Busy is good… now I plan some different business. It is time to throttle back just a bit.

I’m going to do a mural and that will take some time, this will be fun. I am also going to fit in a ton o painting for myself. This is good too! Photography, music, art. That’s what January will be for me.

We just had an ice storm and I went out to take pictures. I am disappointed in the pictures that I took as my D80 and I seem to be having an argument of sorts… you know the one of what it is going to focus in on. My Sony and Kodak did a better job than the Nikon did. I have no idea why.

I’m thinking of getting a part time job. Maybe. With a chaotic work schedule it is a bit difficult to completely commit to something else.

Boys… huh. I’ve had a couple that have been interested and then I shut them down. Must mean I’m not ready to even date. But I’m thinking that that is near. But still I walk away quickly from those interested… any closeness or continuation of what could be, or headed that way… I’ll intentionally take it off of that path. Just call me sabotage Cathie. I need to have patience with myself.

I love being random right now. Random thoughts, random words, random deeds. It is fantastic. I have random friends in so many different circles, thoughts, beliefs, attitudes and I love them all. I think I will go through life randomly. I like it.

Happiness is part of me. I was being goofy last night. Dancing and laughing and just being me. Someone said, “I wish I could have that happiness” and really it comes from within. It made me sad for him as it made me feel that he was so alone. I cannot change attitude in a person, but I can encourage a change.

I’m not going to make this my mission. I’m going to take an interest though.

Patience is what I need. I need more patience with other people. I have a tendency to go straight from A-Z in my thoughts and not recite each letter of the alphabet. I need to be okay with people who do go through each step and work it out…