‘Saw this pc on PostSecret last week…and it truly sums up how i feel anymore.

It’s not that i dont think i’m worthwhile, or dont have lots to give to a relationship….but i’ve lost faith that there really is anyone out there for me.

It just seems like this kind of thing has passed me by….in particular, in the past 2 yrs, i’ve had 3 friends who either rarely dated, or were recently divorced. They each had the attitude of “i’ll never find anyone…”. However, BAM!, in the past year theyve all found a perfect match for them…after very little effort.

And i recently got back in touch with a couple who i played “matchmaker” for in 1985….the guy was an ex-boyfriend, the girl my roommate at the time. I played “the 3rd wheel” for some 5-6 mos till they got to know each other, and started dating.

We’ve been out of touch for some years when i heard from them again this fall…theyve been happily married for 19 yrs now, and have 2 great kids.
The kind of life i wanted for myself….

With me, however,,,i’d been pretty gung-ho with internet dating, blind date dating, for about 2 yrs. And there was not one person i met that i had any sparks with. Nice guys, decent guys…just not “my kind of guy”.

i’d almost like to check this off as a “i give up on this goal”,,,,except that wouldnt be honest, I’ll never truly give up. I just no longer have any faith it ever will…