hey, thanks so much for your comment.

why do i want him.. well, i guess you can’t help who you fall in love with, and this is him, who i fell in love with and regretfully still am.

i think he thought i depended on him too much… he fell out of love, so to speak. a while later he said i didn’t need him to feel good about myself, which wasn’t true.

instead of accepting this break up, all i can think of one day, getting him back, i don’t why i keep telling myself this isn’t permenant.

the problem is i never see him, so i can’t make him feel important or even nag him or ignore him. though we live really close to each other, we go to seperate colleges and i never see him around, except for that one time. i dunno where he hangs out or who he hangs out with anymore. and it’s not like i can even text him or anything because his phone broke and he never fixed it.

i think right now, more than anything i feel angry about how he ended things, though it sounds stupid, i want to see him again so i can be cold and ignore him, i wish he knew how much of a bastard he was and how much it hurts. i think he loved me most when i used to be a bit of a bitch to him.

what can you do if u never see them? it’s so damn hard