Sometimes this is rather depressing because I get further and further from this goal every moment. I have never felt right growing up and have always identified more with children than with adults. My body and my life do not seem to match what is inside of me. I am 23 now but would like to be a single digit in age.

Maybe one day technology will make it possible for me to return return my body to that of a child’s, or my brain can be transferred into a synthetic kid body of some kind. But for now I have to be content with what I’ve got.

It is not just physical, but the way I like to act too. Society is rather oppressive, and the working world especially. I do not feel free to act the way that I want most of the time. I would like to skip and run and around and play and color and finger paint and just generally feel free and happy! Some of these things I can do sometimes. Fortunately, I have a very loving and supporting girlfriend who understands my needs. She loves me for the way that I am. (=

I know that part of me will never grow up. I will never lose my insatiable curiosity or my playful spirit. I will never lose my ability to be mesmerized and entertained by the simplest of things. I will always have more to learn and areas to continue to grow in, people to look up to, and in that way, I will always remain a kid!