last night that this goal is going to be impossible to achieve because as I stood infront of the mirror, nothing fit right, nothing looked right, I was fault finding. I realised that loosing weight, getting fit, etc helps but I realised that even if I achieved all that I still be unhappy because when I look in the mirror I see with my head (read emotions) and not with my eyes. I have to get right with myself before I achieve being happy with what I see, afterall, there are days I look and I am in love with what I see, so the point is not my body but my mind. What causes me to have a fat day, when I weigh exactly the same as I did the day before.

Hence, I am not giving up on this goal, just have to change my approach.