Kenophobia is starting fresh in 2009
I’m not entirely sure if this is going well or not. I seem to be having bad days and good days. Take Wednesday for example. It was a rare day off from Uni for me, and I’d decided the night before to take the opportunity to work on my novel, update my livejournal, and get up to date on some Uni work. And what did I do? Almost nothing. For no apparent reason.
But then again, I’ve had a very productive day today. I think the main problem for me is that I need to find the motivation to actually start things. Once I’m working on something, I’m usually concentrating on it so hard that I don’t think about procrastinating, or wishing I was doing something else. But finding the motivation to actually start on something is so much harder, I find.
I guess I just have to take small steps with this goal, or work myself into the habit of not sitting around and doing nothing. I find that a habit needs at least a month or two to actually stick, so that it becomes a part of your routine. So I guess now I just have to concentrate on working hard for the next few months, and hope it’ll be so ingrained into me that I don’t think about procrastinating as much anymore.
Sigh. This goal is as hard as I thought it would be.