My mom always said, “You’ll do what you want no matter what anyone says” but she is usually angry when she said it :). I think my problem was that I was not following my instincts so much as what sounded good at the moment. I had a strong spiritual awakening recently where I discovered my animal totem (native american spirituality) and realized how far off the path I’m both meant to be on and want to be on, I was. So I am fiercely determined, hell or high water, to live my life as I should, to follow the signs. Even when they don’t make sense! But I think the most important thing is to follow these signs, instincts, pulls, and not think about it. Don’t analyze it. One day you’ll understand why you saw that, did that. It may not be for years but you will eventually see.
