Afterglow is sitting quietly, doing nothing. The grass will grow by itself.

Live up to my own expectations and not to the expectations of others
What hurts the most 10 months ago

is that I don’t know what I would like to do in my life. I feel like I’m a leaf in the wind. Is it normal not to have a spark…something to think of, something to look forward to?
I feel that I’m living my life without me. What am I saying? This is not living, this is simply existing. There are many barriers that I have to break. I want to find that THING that could make me feel alive.
Until recently I thought that marriage and a child would make me happy. Now I don’t know what to think…I hope life means more than that. What am I afraid of? Failure, sacrifices, choosing the hard way, not fitting social standards…I don’t know. I only know that my mind is blocked and it doesn’t allow me to step out of my comfort zone.

Feb 17, 2009, 12:09AM PST | 4 cheers


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Ed bought a snazzy new smartphone. No more archaic, paper-based task mgt

Just know that you are not alone one this. Not by a long shot.

I wouldn’t be surprised to learn that everyone’s felt this way. I know I have.

Mar 19, 09:26AM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer

Cal is looking forward with joy and apprehension.

IMHO

There is no “thing” that will make me feel alive. Being alive is a process. For me I must stop thinking about myself, what will make me happy; and concentrate on others. How can I be helpful. That is not what the world would tell you, but in order to be happy I must be a servant.

Apr 02, 12:24PM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer


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