I think I finally reached the point at which I accept the situation. It’s still hard to feel, but I can go on. I just hope I’ll be able to talk to her like in the old times…
I feel like I’ve just lose the brightest star in the sky of my life, and in the sky at all… so I’m kind of lost for the moment, but it gave me time to think about my future plan, and at least, as long as I keep goals for the next day, I’m walking. I don’t know when, but as long as I am going forward, I’m getting closer from the exit of this black pitch.
I just have to be certain that I’m not hiding behind anything. To say that I will stop to love her would be a lie, but I will be able to live without her, although I’ll feel a little empty in the first times…