I’ve never needed very many friends and I’ve never been popular, so a few close friends to rely on and just hang with would be nice. I do have my fiance but I don’t wanna hang on him every minute of everyday. Also he’s a guy and it would be nice to have some girl friends to do girl things with.

Problem is the longer I’ve been without friends the easier it is for me to live without friends. I often find myself thinking critically of others I don’t know. I assume nobdy wants me to talk to them or vis versa. And anytime I’ve got the golden opportunity to be someone’s friend I just can’t keep up with it. I stop talking to them or contacting them probably for fear or future rejection… Not sure what to do about that…