Since I was younger I always had visions of where I believed I saw myself in 10, 20, 30 or so years. I’ve always had my sights set on something, but yet, at times it just seems so tough to keep those dreams alive. When I first went into college, I was sort of talked into doing social work. I spent time in college classrooms, until one day I lost a good friend of mine in a car accident. He spent less than a day in the Intensive Care Unit at a local hospital, which ended in his death. I sat hard and really thought about my future. That’s when I stopped going to class. I left college, every single social work class. That’s when I enrolled in pre-med courses.

I just have so much going on in my life right now that just makes it so incredibly hard to keep on going. I didn’t have much of a social life growing up, but now I do. This has lead to failing grades and so much more. I hate the college I go to, which is a local community college. Teachers there are extremely impersonal. I’m sure when they were in my shoes, they had passion. But I just don’t see it at all. There is absolutely nothing motivating about going there.

I need to do good. If something ever happens to a family member or a personal friend, I want to have the ability to know what to do..how to help them. I just need to kick myself in the butt, get myself going.