my mom is a bit crazy, we all think she needs to see a doc but she refuses any help, it’s so frustrating. today my parents had another fight in front of all the relatives (about 15 ppl) during dinner, and i just wished there’s a hole that i could hide myself.. :( i asked my dad again when they will get divorced, cuz there’s no point to stay together if no one’s happy in the family, init?

i have a home but im not happy here, actually i feel lonely and drained. im so tired of all the fights and screams. i cannot even remember when’s the last time i see anyone smile at this home!

one thing i can be happy about is that im gonna move to another country soon and dont have to take all this bs in the near future. and i hope i would meet someone special, to form a new family, my own family. A home that i will be happy to go back to.

though sometimes i don’t have confidence cuz the family i come from is such a failure. just hope i dont carry the same craziness in my DNA.