I know how you feel man. I’m in the same boat. Everyday is miserable and I cry uncontrollably. My wife left a little over a month ago with our daughter. Keep the faith and do whatever it takes to become a better person for yourself and for your family. Spare nothing! Trust & have faith in God. Look up Novena prayers for St. Jude and do them. Anything is possible!

Yea Ive needed to become a better person anyway. Obviously she was not perfect either, but in the relationship I could say that she was easily the better half. In most ways anyway. It does hurt and at time tears do flow. 10 years down the hole. I gave her my prime and it hurts to know that she isn’t interested in doing the same.
Everyday is a new opportunity for growth and success so i cant complain anymore. especially since she got her degree and new job shes been on a high horse and treats me like crap. She told me that all there is to life is money and house work. Although i know thats not how she really feels deep down its very disappointing t hear. Lmfao she’s become so ridiculous.
anyway Ive been doing alot of meditative practices and going to yoga at my local gym regularly. It helps alot with bettering myself. Not so much with the emotions though. Well the meditation is the only thing that helps me emotionally and when i combine it in yoga i feel like a healthy person again.
Everyones tells me “move on you’ll get over her”, but thats not the point. at times in the relationship i was already way over her, then id be right back in love with her. those are just feelings. My main concern is the honor and destiny of my family my 2 little girls. Their mother is out there and everyone knows it. Thats hardly the example I want for them. She really has no idea wtf she is doing to be perfectly honest ,but that is the way of today.
A spiritual woman once told me that she was literally just a piece of ass and in her mid twenties that she would leave me. I didn’t want to believe it but it turned out to be true. Not the piece of ass part but the leaving part. If i had known it was true id have never have gotten into this in the first place. We both made some major sacrifices mine more major than hers but she doesn’t believe that Ive made any anyway. the point is that all of it has been deemed unnecessary and a waste because of her choices. Id definitely have done it over honestly though. At least it’d be another shot. I’d still bleed and shed blood for her. I cant lie about that.
I also remember her putting a time limit on our relationship a few years ago, which is confusing. If she really meant it then she never even really wanted to be there. Which sux! If thats the case then i don’t want her back anyway. It would mean that all the time and love we shared was only out of circumstance and not that she wanted or valued it. Which is also very confusing since she was almost always very loving.
I did everything with her. I used to drive her to school almost everyday. we went everywhere and did everything our finances could and sometimes could not allow. on these trips we used up alot of our credit and now she is turning around and saying i have created a million dollar debt!
Anyway Ive tried moving on. Ive seen a girl and have talked to quite a few as well. But they a far in comparison from my wife. At least thats what i think at the moment. Not to say that they aren’t good girls, on the contrary they are great and in some cases excellent possessing alot of what she lacks. On top of that they are all fine as hell! i mean model sexy and very pretty. Honestly they are alot finer than my wife by popular standards, but i just love my wife and have grown accustom to her beauty. She is uniquely beautiful and it is a beauty all her own. I see something so special in her that she is so unaware of.
She was my little warrior. She was so strong. We fought so many battles together When we made love i could hardly contain myself. lol maybe thats why she left? I was so in love with her. Always by my side. She never left it. Man she was there for me. even when i wasn’t there for myself she was there. i used to reassure her of her beauty all the time but i guess it wasn’t good enough coming from little old me. She’s trying to be something shes not, something more like what she wishes she was, then she says “Ive found myself”. she is so insecure. Stupid shit women do to themselves and the ones that love them.
She doesn’t yet know how fake people are but she will soon know. She is over confident in her judgment of character. She is so young and will get hurt. i pray for her safety daily.
its tough knowing that life will never be the same I guess it was never meant to be what i wanted it to be anyway. They say everything happens for a reason. I somewhat agree, yes there are reasons for everything but nothing is set in stone. Whatever.
Yea i read the psalms when thinking of her gets overwhelming. no specific one i just open the book of psalms and start reading what i see. Strangely it always offers great insight to what i have in mind at that moment. Ill check out those prayers you recommended though.
For you i would say hold your head up man. be strong. Don’t get used to crying it will weaken your character. Get some exercise too. 4 days a week at least. you should bust a good sweat and maintain it for 20 to 30 minutes every time. Abdominal strength helps immensely with the managing of depressive emotions. Your wife probably would not want to come back to a weaker more pathetic you anyway. Besides you will be more attractive ;).
Let the feelings of desperation go because although you love her she is probably not loving her self but with all of her heart and mine obviously believes she is so there ain’t much you can do to convince her since shes already used to you and probably shutting her ears to the wisdom in your words. Just keep improving and find some positive affirmations on line somewhere if you don’t have a good book.
Confidence, Self esteem, Goal setting and achieving, those are some good topics for affirmations that may help you to at least over come the emotional side of life and make it easier for you to improve on yourself. well i have a client coming in ten minutes. thx for the comment ill ttyl.
Heruk