So my whole life I’ve always had a bit of depression in me and was so much more emotional than others. About 2 years ago a boy that I loved so much and as far as I knew he loved me really broke my heart and it just broke me and I went into a deep depression. I was cutting and distant from everyone and just not good stuff but in the past about 8 months I’ve stopped and been getting along better but I still have those times that I just get majorly depressed and suicidal and I hate it cause I love life and I don’t like getting that way.. When I was about 9 a man I loved so much that was like a dad to me because my own father wasn’t around hung himself. I think I’ve always brought myself back to that and consider maybe that’s what I should do, just forget this life and go on to a better one. But I know that it’s not now and want to get myself out of the depression I am in. So I’m already starting to feel better and controling my emotions better but still got a long way to go so I sure hope one day all this will be nothing but a bad dream =)