The background to this is that I was pretty sick for little more than a year including recovering. I was on some pretty heavy antibiotics and stress aggravated the side-effects of the medicine. It was recommended to me that I take up some sort of hobby like meditation, yoga, or tai chi. I settled on meditation and got more into my bellydancing, both of which helped.

Since getting better, I’ve fallen out of the habit. I would love to take that discipline up once more, because even though things were bad I had a focus then and accomplished so much in the hours that I was awake. I’m happier these days, but sloth-like. I feel like a general torpitude is starting to set into my daily routine now that I am just two months shy of graduating with my masters and accomplishing on of my long term goals that has motivated me for so long. I even landed with my dream company on my first try and am already fully employed. (Sorry for bragging, but I am really proud of myself if I do say so. :p )

Still, what next? There is a world of possibility, but no singular point that I’m pushing towards for the first time in my life. So I basically need to do some soul searching, and managing my stress levels an area that I can always improve on.

And so I begin my quest for a new mantra.

Past mantras have included:

“So long as I have my health, I have everything.”
“Do not let the little rabbits get me down.”
“There is so much to inspire; I must be courageous.”
“There are more stars than I can see.”

And geekiest of all but probably my favorite and the most beautiful:

“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”
- Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear