well i’m back here after a year of ‘recovering’, but i don’t honestly know if there’s a way out of this disorder. I can’t see a future for myself without anorexia, i can’t imagine just sitting down to eat or even enjoying food again. I’ve got ‘good’ things going for me in life, good grades, intelligent and am always told i can be what ever i want to be, but what if that is nothing? I guess i’m just in a bout of depression but this time there is no light at the end of the tunnel (fuck that sounds cheesy).