because they choose me not because I have any interests in common with them. My people pleasing tendency overrides my boundaries and I end up in relationships that end bad. Usually because I have to find a reason to end them and there isn’t one except I am not interested.

This is very immature on my part. I have spent years waiting for relationships to change (when I know they won’t) or worse waiting for a blow-up to end it.

I am giving you this history because I see myself doing this now to a really nice guy that I have been seeing for a few months but know this relationship is going nowhere. We have different schedules…he’s a night person, I’m a day person…he’s never been married or had children or been in a long term relationship. His time is valuable. I wake up alone, go to sleep alone, eat alone and he says we are in a committed relationship. I see I get crumbs of time in his week and that is not enough for me.

I was co-dependant in my last relationship and I have overcome that problem. So standing up and saying what I need instead of holding it in is a new experience for me. I told him yesterday straight up how I feel about us without any drama.

This is definitely sad because he wants to keep the relationship but I want more companionship in my life.