being happy is too broad. too deep to construed. sometimes we thought we already have it and sometimes we felt we already knew the core definition of it despite of the signs and warnings taht it brought to us and the precoutions that it has we still insist and in the end it leads us to nowhere, we thought that we are complete but still it isn’t what it seems to be. everything needs to be balanced our emotions, physical conditions, spiritual beliefs, social communications..elements which needs to be in proper equilibrium. recently i tried a hundred of times to understand that concept and until now im striving to be afloat and feel the redemption inside to search for the answer. i wanted to be happy just like anyone else but i wanted to be happy in a good way that it’ll not affect the balancing of my own four concept, anyone of us wanted to be part of the so called elysium of happiness right that why i wanted to grab that opportunity and fill in the blank inside me. i thought ive done this but i need to talk alot to myself and intertwine with my ego’s deepest behavior.—