I try not to think about it but I get so nervous when I talk to someone very important or I dont know, I have trouble getting my words out, specially my name. It started off with a physical problem when I was an infant and couldnt talk until I was 8, now I just cant get a lot of words out but If I am drunk or comfortable I can talk so normal. Its like its a trigger in my brain and wont turn off and will never go away, I want to branch off and try something to get rid off it for once and for all, maybe in time or maybe I just need something else, I will try this is most important goal in my life as it barriers me from other goals and the hardest thing to do