All I can think is that I don’t deserve to be with anyone, I don’t deserve any positive attention…thank goodness clothes are covering me.

But! Most of my clothes aren’t even fitting anymore, and it’s driving me crazy. I really will only feel better when i’m better to my body and eat better/exercise.

maybe I can make the exercise fun by browsing in malls, hiking, kayaking…definitely want to run…

I just need to do this for myself.. to really pull things together.