Buster Benson I need more goals.

learn how to prepare 10 excellent meals (read all 5 entries…)
Can't find the enjoyment.

There are certain things that I want to like but that I just can’t find the special trigger in my brain that makes me like it. Cooking is the one that frustrates me the most. People that I like and who I have many other things in common with seem to love it. LOVE it.

I asked Josh the other day what exactly it was that he enjoyed about the art of cooking and he described something similar to what I’ve heard from other people as well:

  1. A lot of the enjoyment is in the closeness to the materials… watching how things in your hand can be combined to create tastes… like a chemist in a way.
  2. There’s the cultural element of dishes (where they come from, the kind of people that eat/ate that particular dish, etc).
  3. The gadget/consumerist/expert angle of having great tools, good ingredients, fine recipies, feeling like an expert, etc.

Everyone explains it a bit differently but I think that’s the gist of it at least. Of those elements, I think element 1 should be right up my alley. That’s why I like writing, web development, and so many other things. It’s fun building things and discovering the magical properties of the things you’re building with.

To be honest, I think part of the reason I can’t get into cooking is because people take such pride in it. It is a simple pleasure that has a long history and makes you feel like you’re a real human being with worth and who justifies placement alongside all of the other people who participate in the simple pleasure. The same reason why I had trouble buying a house, and getting married, and why I’m not sure about babies. It’s like reading Harry Potter, or voting… you become one of the masses, and people can relate to you and they think they have some kind of special bond with you. Of course, I still end up doing many of these things, but each one eats a bit of my soul. Why do these things give me the shivers? Not sure… probably a good kicking off point for therapy at some juncture… until then, I’m giving up on this cooking biz.



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Happy Phantom is raising money for Shari's Crohnies

Don't be so hard on yourself

Cooking is not this instinctual thing or some innate ability that humans have. It’s a skill, just like playing an instrument, learning a sport, etc. It takes time.

The best I can tell you is to start simple. Get good at macaroni and cheese or spaghetti. When you get pretty good at the timing and the basics of it, start experimenting with one flavor at a time. Add a spice to your mac and cheese (even if you start from the box). Add a different kind of cheese, cook it a slightly different way. Get to know how much basil or oregano you like in your pasta sauce. Even just doctor up a jar you bought.

I think many people who try cooking, start with from scratch recipes and get jaded too quickly. Don’t try the recipe from gourmet, try the one on the box of pasta or on the jar of sauce.

Maybe you’ve tried these, but I wouldn’t give up so easily.

Best of luck!

Buster Benson I need more goals.

This makes sense. But it assumes that I want to learn. I want to WANT to learn, but I’m not able to trick myself into simply wanting to learn. It makes all tricks of self fall flat because the ability to trick yourself is dependent on the desire to trick yourself… and when that’s not there… um… I don’t know, now I’m confused.

Happy Phantom is raising money for Shari's Crohnies

Hmmm

You are a tricky one. I guess, then if you really don’t want to learn, it’s probably not for you. And that’s okay. My husband can’t and really won’t cook. So apparently, he found someone who loves to cook. Lucky him. Sounds like you should pair yourself up with people who can cook and just anjoy the products!

Laura M. is getting back into the swing of 43Things

can i just say ...

i throughly enjoy reading your posts!they are very well written and usually always discuss something more than the surface topic. much like the layers of an onion as you slice through it before you saute it in olive oil.

ok- that’s not all im going to say. :)

voting makes you a follower? i will NEVER fully understand how people can say this!
i get the house/married/kids part. that is scary for everybody (uhoh something you have in common with the masses.. sorry to throw that in your face.) ;)

maybe you could find some recipes on how to cook chocolate covered grasshoppers or make wasabi sculptures. that would be off the beaten path… :)

seems like you are closing this experience off for yourself instead of making it your own.
also please keep inmind as you read my post that i put find a good therapist on MY 43t list after i read it on your list … so this might be like the blind leading the blind. :)

Buster Benson I need more goals.

scary vs repulsed

Yeah, most people are scared of some of these collective experiences, but are they repulsed by them? I’m sure there are lots of people in my boat (sinking ship?) but I don’t think it’s the majority…

I don’t know why I threw voting in there… I guess I just see it as this thing that people really get worked up about and I’m more of a don’t-tell-people-how-I-voted kind of person (except with close friends). I know it’s important (just like family, finances, and many other boring things)... but it’s not the most important thing in the world as some people make it seem. For instance, the value of voting depends entirely on what you’re voting ON. Voting for or against unimportant things is equally unimportant. And, as far as ways to participate in society, I think there are many more effective ways of making your community/city/country a better place, and most of them involve how you interact with people and your own environment on a daily basis. Voting schmoting! A long disclaimer… see, I feel guilty for my anti-American thoughts on voting and am overcompensating with lots of words.

Regarding finding the kinds of recipes that make this a bit more personal, I did prototype my spaghetti burrito idea last week. :) My other idea, the hotdog sushi, hasn’t yet been implemented. So, it’s probably fair to say that while I am giving up on learning 10 excellent meals… I’m not on experimenting with cooking. So I’m taking your advice.

Have you found a good therapist yet? Maybe we could try to get a group discount?

Laura M. is getting back into the swing of 43Things

worse than i thought...

LMAO!
cheers to the spaghetti burrito. that is just outstanding! disgusting and outstanding. :)

very specialized defense mechanizms (dont have time to spell check im about to get kicked out of the cafe im at and loose my connection even thought i am a regular! grrrr.) at work here. cheers to that! takes dedication and hutzpa and smarts!

yes voting for voting’s sake is hooey, i agree. but in the cases where SOMEONE is going to be elected or something is going to be decided i think it is imperative to voice an opinion. that’s me. i agree with alot of what you said too.

maybe we could tag team the therapist and go see him/her on alternating days. i could wear a black jacket and a shirt with a blue collar and you could disguise your self as some pink lily pads. we could go in 50-50. im game.

must go now… getting dirty looks that say “your time is up!!!!!”

Buster Benson I need more goals.

Kicking out a regular? Bastards!

Okay, I happen to have a grudge against opinions, but I won’t bring it up now lest we get into a big fight that causes our nested comments to flow off the right of the screen. I know, an opinion against opinions themselves is a bit silly… but that’s the way it is.

And, as the person dressed as lily pads, and who goes by the name peanutbutter, I believe that I would be able to get much more for my 50% cash investment than you would get for yours… so I’m in as well. :)

Laura M. is getting back into the swing of 43Things

touche!

good one, Benson! :)

k- i cant take it. what is this grudge(in this case another word for opinion) against opinions? may i please hear the theory if i promise not to nest too much?

hazzahhhh!! tag team the therapist! oh what fun…

Melissa Axel http://music.melissaaxel.com

basgetti splurrito

It’s fascinating how talking about something so apparently grounded in the simple and physical like cooking can lead to an exploration of resistance to soul-eating acts of conformity vs. acclimation to what might just be basic (and thus difficult to avoid, possibly even rewarding) components of being a human being at this random point in the history of the “race” (kind of an ironic term I think)... Considering that 100 years is really a small period of “time” compared to how long this evolution thing has supposedly been going on, what percentage of the whole kit and caboodle has included a concept of property ownership, marriage, voting?

I have still yet to distinguish final viewpoints on many things of this sort – and maybe that is a good thing. I’ve come close to proceeding along “the expected path” in my life on a few things… Luckily though, albeit not without some heartache and struggle (but ultimately with reward), I discovered that my views on them were, as you so eloquently put it here, designed to break, causing my “socialized beliefs” to be not only transformed, but rendered permanently flexible. Great for freer living, but much remains a puzzle as there are still battles with the “my truth vs. the masses” thing…

And yet, there does seem to be an inherent human need for some kind of belonging and validation (not really the right word, maybe confirmation of things that leaves the ongoing re-interpretation option open?) that leads us into parternships, activism, gadget-collecting, etc. Are these part of our evolution? Will we outgrow them? Have we already, but we simply haven’t found new m.o.’s yet?

Ultimately, I think it’s the experimentation and the elucidation/growth/possible amusement or at the very least knowledge of your own capabilities gathered therein – the “watching how things in your hand can be combined” – that is of real worth. It doesn’t really matter all that much to anyone else what we do or how much that does or doesn’t fit into the prescribed societal patterns… it certainly matters far more to us than it does to the countless other souls worrying about what they are doing and how that does or doesn’t fit in. Self-centeredness may just be a built-in safety to keep anything we do from having that big of an impact on anything or anyone else… which makes the phenomenon of enjoying each other’s thoughts here that much more compelling.

I’m rambling. The bottom line is that I was actually thinking about the spaghetti burrito before I read as far down as this comment, and I was very excited to see it appear here. It truly is the crux of this issue – I hope it is widely available soon!

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Buster Benson I need more goals.

I too love eating. This love, however, is probably more of a deterrent for me than an assistant because I happen to live within 5 blocks of over 100 restaurants… many of which are extremely tasty. No preparation! No cleaning! All eating!

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Laura M. is getting back into the swing of 43Things

ahh the joys of drunken cooking...

i did that alot in college. everyone would be sitting around drinkin and chattin and having a grand ol’ time and i would pop up and go cook something.

i do admit it is strange. :)


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