I’m actually so terrified of phones that it’s affecting my job. I’m afraid I might actually lose my job because I’m so terrified I can’t call in to find a sub. Actually, I’ve called and talked to several people and left a few messages (both of which leave me shaking and almost crying from anxiety…) but I get to the point that I’m so exhausted and frustrated that I just can’t force myself to do it anymore and leaves me more terrified than I was before. I’m afraid to call my supervisor because they’ll just tell me I need to find a sub and then if I don’t it will just be that much worse. So I end up not showing up to work and no one know where I am…all because I’m so irrational terrified of making phone calls that I almost can’t do it at all. I have communication problems outside of phones as well, but with phones it’s like 20,000 times worse. The fear then makes me feel completely alone (because no one else understands it, frustrated, anxious, angry, and above all extremely stupid (I mean, I can’t make a phone call for crying out loud. Worst is that I have NO IDEA WHY I’m so scared. There isn’t anything to be scared of yet I’m too scared to move.