at this lately! I’m feeling a bit nervous about my trip overseas and so that anxiety has, I believe, led to a bit of “edginess” to my words and behavior. To the point of telling someone I care about that I was done with helping he and to just “fuck it” cause I “was done”. That’s just so not like me. I’ve called 2 people “stupid” one of which was my 17 year old nephew who I love with all my heart. I was able to apologize and we moved on, but I’m quite surprised at how I’m behaving in a way.

Gotta work this out, focus on what needs to get done and just do it. Need to make a phone call and apologize for my rudeness.