is an ugly word. But it’s how I’ve been feeling lately. I’ve put on a good deal of weight since I’ve been living with Ian and his parents- they buy a lot of unhealthy food and snack stuff, and all of them eat a lot. And being around that all of the time, I find it difficult to eat what I should and avoid what I need to. I have also been working at a convenience store for the past month or so which doesnt help- if I get hungry at work, I grab a cookie, chocolate bar or bag of chips. It isnt health and if I keep it up, I’m not only going to get bigger and unhappier with my body, but I could be looking at some serious health issues. It needs to stop.