I’ve liked this one guy for almost 2 years. The first time I saw him..I had a crush on him. I found out he had a girlfriend and i backed away. We made a connection back in November…and in December started to hang out. I was so afraid…I couldn’t believe he was showing me all this attention. I couldn’t be myself because I had played him up so much that I wanted to be “PERFECT” for him. I couldn’t just be “ME”. And for the past 6 months I have been searching and searching for this “ME”. And although it’s been a transformative period…and I credit it for it…I feel I may have lost him. :(

But, I need to tell him how I feel. I need to tell him that the girl he was with was not me. I need to tell him that I have liked him all along and he never needed to do anything to impress me. He’s helped me find my voice by the pure act of living. And now, I want to live and speak my truth…but I want him too. And I’m so sad over this because I wanted to tell him..and I was going to tell him the next time i saw him. But now I feel he is with someone. I believe their relationship just begun. I’m no homewrecker, and even if I get no where by telling him….I think it will bring peace to me by just letting him know how I feel. Maybe It will help me let him go too…