progress has definitely been made here. i truly trust that everything will work out in the end. but that’s sort of the next hurdle – “in the end” seems so far away and eschatological.

i want to be able to see everything working out right in front of me, rather than at some end-of-the-rainbow point of the future. although i can imagine myself successful and happy years from now, it’s still difficult for me to believe that good things can happen to me right now. perhaps part of me does not think that i deserve it yet. that needs to change.

i’m glad i’ve been keeping a gratitude journal. it helps me recognize that good things do happen and reminds me that i am capable of happiness, even now. practicing affirmations will be good also to help me realize and recognize my present capacity for happiness and success. i want to start doing those.

i think i need to make a vision board too.