as much as i would love to do this.

it seems to lead to me episodes.

and i really dont want to have a seizure because of that.

but then what do i do?
smoking is something i really enjoy doing.
it takes me to places where i am actually happy.
but it also leads me to hell.

so what?
i just dont know.
i guess i am going to have to stop smoking.
but i dont know what i will do.
i cant just stop.
i dont want to.

ha, lovely situation.