I heard a song the other day and part of the lyrics say “I don’t know who I am without you..all I know is that I should.” It hit me like a ton of bricks that for the past four years I associate myself with my boyfriend. I depend on him for everything and I feel as if I’ve lost myself. I finally brought myself to end the relationship last night. The hard thing is sticking to it. I know it wasn’t a healthy relationship but I don’t even know what to do with myself. I don’t know what I even enjoy doing anymore. How is it possible to be happy alone..when alone, I’m empty?
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Threetimesthree hanging by a thread but working at it
I hear you...
You wrote this entry a little while back and I don’t know how your situation is today, but I would like to applaud you for taking the initiative to end a relationship that, it seems, you actually depended on.
I went through something similar, except that it was my ex who broke off our 9-year relationship after he saw I had grown too depended on him.
I have no advice to give you, as I find myself in the same situation. But just wanted you to know that you are not alone, others as myself, face the same challenge everyday.
No matter your situation today, whether you came back to this person or not, you at least know that when needed, you are able to count on yourself and show courage.
This says volumes about you as a person.
Cheers!
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