...right now I’m in a job that I like, am good at, but am not sure I “fit” the mold for what is expected philosophically or socially in. These things keep me wondering (especially at this time of the year) if I will be employed following the summer, which I can’t afford to not be.

Don’t get me wrong, I really do enjoy working where I do most of the time, the thing is that there is no job security and I get the feeling that if I have a differing opinion (or voice it) I could be let go at any time.

The boss man and boss lady both recognize all of the good that I do, but in the same breath are quick to criticize my flaws. I’m very aware that I am not perfect, have a less filtered personality, and can be moody at times, but I am starting to doubt (paranoia, perhaps) if they will change their minds from my presence being tolerated as a necessary annoyance to me just plain not being worth hanging on to.

It’s a little tense, and though I am nearly certain that all will work out in the end, I hate living on the edge of a sword during the months of May and June.

Maybe I should change. Maybe I can’t change. Maybe I need to push the law school issue full throttle. I’ve bounced around enough in this career path to make me think it may not be the right place for me.

Where, oh where is the rich debutante that falls madly in love with me and is willing to fully fund our “perfect life?”