Tonight my mom, little sister, Gabe, Shawn and I went out to eat. At one point these two nice women approach us to gush over Shawn and Gabriel, and the one asks me (probably against her better judgement) “How old are you?!” I told her and she looked a bit shocked and said “You look 15!”

I got that another time when I was grocery shopping, and as I was checking out, the cashier told me I was “too young!” to have had Gabriel (who was a baby). I said “I’m 21!”

(I know women are generally waiting til they are older nowadays, but come on!!!)

I suppose this should be flattering, but I kind of wonder if it’s my bad skin that makes me look like a teenager.

I happened to go to my old geocities site the other night – good thing too, coz geocities is closing at the end of the year so now I’ve moved all my old files – and I didn’t have this when I was 15-18. What happened? Even in my wedding photos I don’t have this. It was only afterwards. Am I allergic to Tommy or something? (Did losing my virginity have something to do with it!? lol!)

Not that I’m by any means ugly now, but I was SO PRETTY back then! I WANT THAT BACK! Here is an example from when I was 17.

And then the other day my mom sent me an email with a link to someone’s blog about her experience with rosacea. She related that she had spent over $5000 on treatments for her rosacea, from creams and pills to laser therapy. Either nothing happened (don’t I know how that feels…) or it made it worse. She was promoting this website here.

I got the pop up box that offered me $10 off and I mean, you see these kind of websites around, and I always rolled my eyes at them… but this time, I thought oh why not! I spent double that on a stupid “acne” cream that did absolutely NOTHING. Maybe this is finally “it”. I’ve become increasingly distrustful of doctors and Big Pharma in general, and the line “conventional treatments do nothing to fight the root cause of rosacea – they merely “patch up” the problem and try to reduce severity” sold me. I’ve been a supporter of homeopathic medicine for as long as I can remember, and that is exactly how homeopathic medicine works.

So I bought the pdf!

I’m not promoting the website QUITE yet… but what I read (the pdf isn’t even 30 pages long and most of it is his own experience) makes TOTAL sense. This might just be “it”. I’ll keep you posted. (: