So this memoir is not coming together, I’ve done a lot on it but did another writing class and see that I want to write how other people think I should write not how my brain wants to write. I have gotten so discouraged about this whole you must publish and you must write to publish and you must structure to publish. So now I’m mad at the system and I am going to create this memoir how I want to write it. Sick and tired of pushing my creative efforts into boxes that mean nothing to me