I still think about her a lot, and I’ve noticed that when she doesn’t hear from me for a while she’ll text me, or chat with me online. I know she’s not ready for more than friendship right now, though. And maybe all this means we wouldn’t be right together anyway…or maybe it’s just bad timing.

Either way, I’ve also realized I can’t jump right back into dating—I’m not ready for it, I still have strong feelings for C and it wouldn’t be fair to another woman to date her while I’m emotionally unavailable. I’m going back to focusing on me for awhile, getting things going with school and continuing to better my financial situation. But I will admit, I still hold out hope that the right time will come along with C. She’s really an amazing person, and I think we fit well together in many ways…both with our similarities and our differences. Plus, she motivates the hell outta me!