Ok, This song is not for everyone. The video for it is kinda lame. But there is just so much of this that speaks to me and to what I am working against in my own self and my own life. I’ll post the lyrics and then I can explain more.

Everybody Here Is A Cloud by Cloud Cult (I don’t THINK they’re actually a cult. But who knows)

And everybody here is a cloud
And everybody here will evaporate
You came up from the ground
From a million little pieces, have you found where your place is?
Have you found where your place is?
Have you found where your place is?

You’ve been spending your time
Thinkin’ about why you think so much
If there ever was a time
Now would be the time to see your time here is limited

Everybody here is a crowd
We all walk around with a million faces
Somebody turn the lights out
There’s so much more to see in the darkest places
In the darkest places
In the darkest places

And everybody here is a cloud
And everybody here will evaporate
You came up off the ground
From a million little pieces, have you found where your place is?

Everybody here is waiting for the next creation
They say oh-oh-oh-oh
Everybody here is waiting for the next creation
They say go-go-go-go

Everybody here is a crowd
We each walk around with a million faces
You came up from the ground
From a million little pieces, have you found where your place is?
Have you found where your place is?
Have you found where your place is?

Okay, So As you can tell from the lyrics and from my title for this entry, the primary focus for me is “You’ve been spending your time, Thinking about why you think so much.” And even the next line. “If there was ever a time, now would be the time to see your time here is limited.” This is a realization that I have been against for a long time. My time here is limited. LIMITED. I not a big proponent of limits. I hate them. They are, for all intents and purposes, USELESS! But, and I can’t believe I am about to even TYPE THIS, I am human. (BLEEEEEECCCCCCCHHHHHHHH! Gag me!) Yeah Yeah, hate me if you want to but I am not a fan of humans, for the most part. They have their redeeming qualities, but they seem to be few and far between. (I know, I should be saying WE, but give me a break. LONG before I was convincing myself I was a god so I could deal with life I was convincing myself I was an emotionless robot so I could deal with the tyrannical expectations of a military father. {Yes ROBOT! I was like 6 or 8 or younger when this started so robots were the only unfeeling thing I could think of} So back off!) Anyway, its difficult for me to get used to the idea of being limited. IN ANY WAY! But, realizing that time is limited, may not be a bad thing. I have to realize that not everyone is a “big picture” as me. I need to be more “in the moment.” Which, if you ask Jimmy Bohr, my scene study teacher back in NYC, I was NEVER good at. I could never seem to separate my mind from the whole of the play. And its the same for life. I feel like I know the ending so I never really play the part in an individual scene, I always try to maintain the overall image of the character I want to portray. I hope this acting analogy isn’t losing anyone. (Even though it is kinda losing me) And I also realize that my every entry on 43things sort of counts as spending my time thinking about why I think so much. But its not like I passed up an invitation to a party to be sitting here doing this tonight. I didn’t. If there was a party tonight, I was not invited, nor had any knowledge of it. I have been taking every social opportunity presented to me of late, parties and the like. I’m going to become better. I am better.