what do i say about this? a few years ago i would’ve never dreamed of having this goal. i have loved and lost since then. even more importantly, i have learned so much about myself. so where is he? am i somehow blocking this from happening (subconsciously)? am i seeking the impossible? i see so many failed relationships around me, so many dysfunctional ones too. despite that, i still cling to the hope that there is a decent, generous, loving, and supportive man out there for me…