I’ve been working diligently on this. It’s a lot of hard work. I’m trying to heal more than pain from one relationship. This relationship and its aftermath are only a small part of the tangle in my heart. If I had healed my heart before the relationship, we may have had a different, happier ending. As it is, I must deal with what is at hand.

In life we cannot control what happens to us but we can control how we react to it. That’s all I’m trying to do right now. Control my reactions, breathe, exist only one day at a time, keep my mind in the present and out of the past and dreams of the future, be kind to myself, cry when I need to, exercise, and get out in the sunshine. Hopefully time will take care of the rest.