newvanessa is finally feeling like herself

recover from a broken heart (read all 50 entries…)
Wow.... 5 months ago

Yep…my heart is still broken it has been 16 months…and mu first thought is still WHY???

I went to eat sushi the other day and the girl that used to wait on Mike and I told me.. he was there by himself eating and looking sad…I asked her what day it was and she she told me… It was his birthday. He was all alone eating at our restaurant on his birthday it was the 4th of July. I thought of him all day that day. I so wanted to call him but I didn’t. It made me sad that he is so obstinate….

So my saga continues…..

Maybe some day I will be okay.

Jul 21, 09:05AM PDT | 5 cheers


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DoubleN

Good

to see you back, but the post makes me sad. {{{{Vanessa}}}}

Jul 21, 10:48AM PDT | Respond to this

newvanessa is finally feeling like herself

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Me too…..

I really would like to be able to move on with my life….but I suppose God really has other plans for me….

So I go along with his plans for me…

Mainly I feel sad for him…for his inability to let me back into his life. For his inability to let anyone close for a long period of time….

But I still have faith in him. faith that he will put it all together..

it is crazy… I have been going with Keith for a whole entire year and not once have I ever thought that I loved him..or ever thought wow I want to spend the rest of my life waking up with him…. it isn’t fair to him or me…but I do not want to be alone and he is a great guy…

Crap…...

Jul 21, 09:22PM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer

Adrian ever changing like a butterfly

Time is the healer

Look after yourself and try and be truthful with yourself. One day you will wake up and everything will better.

I found that 43things helped me think about all the good things in my life and made be realize that what I went through was by no means unique.

Aug 02, 05:17AM PDT | Respond to this


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