Ira wishes he had more time for 43things
I said in entry 14: “I’d like to believe that the universe gives us nudges (and occasionally, shoves) towards things that would make our lives better. This is not so much a belief as an idea (as Chris Rock says in Dogma), but I look back on my life so far and for all the difficulties and detours, it really looks like I’m being led towards something.”
I no longer believe this. Believing this is an insult to people who have been less fortunate than me – people whose lives are full of pain without apparent purpose.
I don’t think if there is something there, that that something would be angry with me for thinking based on available evidence. But most of all, there is far too much senseless suffering in the world for me to think that I‘m being led towards something. My life has taken some major twists and turns – but I’ll just be thankful for what luck I get, and try to do my best with it.