It is the first week in August. I slept in the front guestbedroom/office tonight because the mattress cover & sheets were in the dryer. I woke up at around 4:40. I’ve been very depressed lately because I lost a job that I had waited to start for months. I had so much for this job. It meant so much to me. I trained out of town and worked across the state for about a month. I was living out of extended stay hotels with the kids, but it was worth it. I was so busy with work, I had even lost a few pounds. Then, one night when I was walking into to my hotel, I got a call from an outsourced HR company telling me not to come into work in the morning. No warning, no hint at all that anything was wrong before that call. I was stunned. I am still stunned. I put my trust in this company. I believed in my work. I was proud of what I had prepared for months to do.

Since that call, I have worried and stressed over money and health (my benefits were days away from kicking in). Since I’ve been home, I’ve been eating for comfort and not moving much. In addition to the hurt of losing my job, I am not feeling well and my house is a mess. I want to get my self in order emotionally in physically for my own sake first and for my beautiful children as well.