I wrote this list about 4 years ago in 2005. I wanted to have a baby so bad that it became an awful emotional roller coaster. Now I have 3 babies!!! A set of twins that are 2 and a 1 year old. Probably explains why I haven’t visited this list since I first wrote it in 2005! I love my babies and feel blessed. It is crazy for me now though…everything I’ve always wanted just not so fast and not so many at once. At least we will get through the diaper phase all at once. Really though I had my twins at 30 weeks and its one of the most difficult things Ive ever had to deal with…so many doctors appointments, therapy sessions… wondering if everything is going to be okay. Not knowing how extensive the damage of being born so early for one of my sons saddens me greatly. I have this vision of dancing with my sons when they each marry and I hope it comes true. Right now one of my sons is almost 2 1/2 years old and he cant walk. Having a baby was my number one goal. I pushed God’s hand and I am paying the price.