so, truth be told, i dont have that much money left at all. but i have some, and enough for me… i know how to budget. and since i have to quit working for my grandma that one day a week because school, then i wont be having any cash flow at all.

and i am not ok with this.
i can easily go get a job, and go to school and work.
i have been doing it for the past 4 years without a problem.

but heres my true problem-
like i said, the past 4 years i have been almost totally supporting myself, from food to gas and all in between. i went to school 5 days a week, and worked over 60 hours a week, roughly 6 days a week. thats what i needed to do, so i did it, and i enjoyed it. i like working and supporting myself.
but i did choose to take this summer off, almost completely, with no work and just relax and take a break.
now that i am going back to school very soon, my mother is against me getting a job and going to college. they have been trying to give me gas money and ‘some extra’... but i dont use it.
i know they are doing it because they love me and whatever their parenting reasons are.. but they are still in a finacial crisis, and them giving me money sure doesnt make me feel good about it.

i really dont see the point why they are trying to support me now, and not 4 years ago or whatever.
this unfair stuff they do between me and all my sisters is really ridiculous. and i am sick of it.

so as soon as i am ok with school and ahve confidence in myself that i can handle 17 hours or school and 30 (at least) hours of work.. then i am going to do it.

then i will have nothing to worry about when it comes to money at all!