So… I added this new goal.. and I also added “heal my broken heart”, just to… I don’t know.. I decided to put “Move on” on top of my list. Because I guess that’s what I have to do, no matter what. It hurts so much, so very very much. I’m so tired. I was thinking coming here and write might ease the pain at least a little bit… Just a little bit… Now I’m so tired I don’t have the energy to write anyways… I just need to sleep… Though, in a way I don’t want to sleep because then I’m afraid of dreaming of him, and then… I awake, and… I think it’s almost worst in the mornings. When I wake up, and maybe for a moment, just half a second I’ve almost forgot… just for a brief moment…and then I realize, how things are right now… And I can’t understand it… can’t comprehend… And it just hurts.
Well…
I need to sleep… I hope next time I wake up it won’t hurt as much. I wish I could go to sleep, and then when I woke up everything would be fine again.
