I’m happy. I would really like to check this goal as completed. But I’ve only been happy since about the end of July. I forgave myself for a lot mistakes and it just make life so much better. School is good. My family is good. My friends are good. My boyfriend is good.

Yet sometimes, I still have down nights that feel hopeless. And I don’t know WHY. Is it clinical depression? PMS? Just life? Or is it fear of repeating the past? I’ve forgiven myself… but I don’t ever want to make those same mistakes again. I don’t want to let my boyfriend down again… but more importantly… I don’t want to let me down again either. We both deserve to be togther and to be happy. I just have to trust that I make him happy… and trust that I can make myself happy.

Trust.