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Out of control and feeling really despicable 3 months ago

I work really hard. In fact it’s fair to say that my work consumes me. My life is slowly being gobbled up by what I want to be a piece of my life.

I feel disgusted by this lack of oontrol. By not being able to look after myself, by my vulnerablity, my weakness at not being able to manage. and i hate that I am stuck in this cycle without any clue of how to get out. Quit my job? Go on a long holiday? Stop caring? ANd not having an idea of where to start is even more sickening. How can I not even really know what I am unhappy about. Especially with all the complaining I am doing? Sick!

Sep 09, 01:21PM PDT | 1 cheer


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tangerine_now the new year only gets better I swear

Easy there!

Being sick of yourself is not going to help much. You’ll just end up repeating the cycle. Breathe, remind yourself that you can do the things you want to do, do them to the best of your ability, and cut yourself some slack if you fail first time. There’s always a second time.

Find the strengths, not the weaknesses. Other people will do that for you. :)

Sep 09, 01:26PM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer


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