Charlie is moving forward, one day at a time.
Taking care of myself again
3 months ago
Found myself “dealing” with my problems by drinking a six pack.
That’s not dealing. So I’ve started AA.
Comments:
I wish you well on your journey through AA. Be kind to yourself and know that you’re part of a great, worldwide support network.
Charlie is moving forward, one day at a time.
Thank you. So far, everyone has been very kind and understanding- they’ve all been there, most of them worse than me.
But, man, does growth hurt sometimes…
Yeah, growth does hurt. It’s hard to even allow yourself to be vulnerable enough to see the hurt for what it is and move forward. I’m not entirely sure why that is. You’d think that just identifying the source of the problem would be enough of a jolt, that you’d instantly feel better.
Think of it this way: you got through law school, so you know you’ve got tenacity to spare. You used that for yourself when you furthered your education. Now would probably be a good time to use that tenacity to rid yourself of the alcoholism and reclaim your life.
You can do it!
Charlie is moving forward, one day at a time.
I've started thinking of it like this...
I’m rebooting my life. And I don’t really have tenacity – law school was easy for me. That kind of thinking, that kind of analysis – no problem.
But when the stuff hits the fan I have folded like a cheap suit.
I did the dry drunk thing for 18 months. Then I had a beer, then another, then a few weeks later it was cocktails… You know the story I’m sure.
The fact is that I was accountable to no one – trying to live by my own rules. Well, he who makes the rules is not necessarily bound by them, and so I bent and flexed the, to suit my base desires.
All id, and no superego.
Well as of now, I am not accountable only to myself. I have to account to my Higher Power – and I know I have one, even if I am not sure what it is. I am not accountable to my meeting, in the sense that there will be punishment or consequences, but I do make account to them when I share.
So one day at a time. I didn’t drink today, and for that I am grateful. I’ll have to ask my Higher Power to help me not drink tomorrow.
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