it’s my birthday tomorrow – er, today already, the 23rd of september, the day after equinox, the first full day of autumn. :)

i feel really good about this last year. i feel like i grew a lot. i definitely let go of a lot of fears. i realized that i am responsible for my own life and that i have the power to make or break it. i used to feel at the mercy of the universe, and that vulnerability made me fear the worst in life. my attitude was often so self-defeating. but that began to change last summer and when i hit 30 one year ago, i felt a solid shift. somehow it seemed natural to leave that confounded attitude and insecurity behind, like it belonged to my 20s but my 30s would not be interested. indeed, i began to really feel empowered by the universe. huge progress.

this past year i began to feel my anger and noticed my grudges. i lived with a triggering individual most of the year. my band broke up this past year and there were some difficult feelings there also, some sense of betrayal. i was keenly aware of these negative emotions as they arose and knew that something had to be done about them, but it wasn’t until the end of the year that i decided to really let go of all that negativity. it has only been about a month since, but the decision and the transformation has felt significant.

power and forgiveness. these themes must continue to be refined in this 31st year of mine. i think that one way to carry both of these themes to the next level will be to consciously grow in my kindness to others. i would like to be more giving. this includes smiling more often to extend a little positivity. sharing positivity will definitely help me to feel empowered in this world. it will help me connect with others more and tap more often and deeper into my compassion. i would like to be more considerate of others. this positive connection with others will definitely get the law of attraction moving in my favor.

kindness. of course.

as an extension of that i would also like to work on connecting not only beyond myself, but beyond humans. i want to feel a deeper connection with other species, with the elements, and with planets and stars. this will also take power and forgiveness to a deeper level. it will be a way to transcend my ego and tap into the strength and love and perspective of a universe greater than myself.

what an exciting 31st year i have to look forward to!