My ex and I met when he was only 15yr old. We were together for 9 years and had 2 beautiful daughters. I was a rough sometimes abuse relationship. After our 2nd child was born I decided to leave. I still Loved him dearly, but I had to think of my children. I got angry to hide the hurt. The only reason I left was because of my girls. I never stopped Loving him even after we both remarried. I longed for the day that we could be together again and share our cildren and grandaughter. His death was very sudden and as of yet unexplained. I did get a chance to speak with him about 2 weeks ago, but do you tell someone that you still Love them? When you are remarried.I never and now will never be able to let him know how I still felt after all these years. Our youngest daughter just turned 20. I have loved this man for over 30years. Now what do I do with this grief and who can I talk to that would understand?