We’re growing apart, and I’ve realised that one of the reasons this upsets me (apart from the obvious) is that it makes me feel like a failure – for not being able to keep us together, not being able to keep him, not being good enough for him to stay. Of course, if I look at this objectively, these arguments are ridiculous and have nothing to do with anything that is going on. It’s not about me – it’s about us wanting different things and him moving away,

The fact that he’s not bothered about keeping us together, not bothered about keeping me and not bothered about staying has nothing to do with me being or not being good enough. He still wants to be with me, but not enough to stay where I am. And while that might be good enough for him, it isn’t for me. I need to be true to myself and admit to him, and me, that it’s just not enough.

This does not make me a failure at relationships, it makes me a success at understanding my needs and not allowing him to take me, and us, for granted any longer. It might be great 5% of the time, but it’s non-existant 95% of the time – and that just isn’t a relationship. No matter how great it’s been before, it isn’t now. And I need to stop living in the past and/or possible future and be true to myself and my needs.